Monday 15 May 2017

I Want Some More

15th May, 2017
West Lafayette, IN

I was watching a film called ‘The Life of David Gale’. The story revolves around a college professor, who is actively engaged in a campaign to end capital punishment. Amidst his alcohol troubles and activism, he loses his family, his job, respect of his peers and students, and lastly is charged with murder of a fellow activist, for which he is, ironically, given the capital punishment. Of course, that’s only part of the whole plot. What interested me more was a two-minute scene in the movie in which David Gale delivers a lecture to his class on Lacan’s idea of fantasy. I quote the exact words used in that scene hereunder.

‘Fantasies have to be unrealistic because the moment, the second that you get what you seek, you don't, you can't want it anymore. In order to continue to exist, desire must have its objects perpetually absent. It's not the "it" that you want, it's the fantasy of "it." So, desire supports crazy fantasies. This is what Pascal means when he says that we are only truly happy when daydreaming about future happiness. Or why we say the hunt is sweeter than the kill. Or be careful what you wish for. Not because you'll get it, but because you're doomed not to want it once you do. So the lesson of Lacan is, living by your wants will never make you happy. What it means to be fully human is to strive to live by ideas and ideals and not to measure your life by what you've attained in terms of your desires but those small moments of integrity, compassion, rationality, even self-sacrifice. Because in the end, the only way that we can measure the significance of our own lives is by valuing the lives of others.’

Man is a selfish animal. He has a hierarchy of needs, which he spends his life trying to achieve one after another. I am sure I will too. But sometimes I do wonder if I must start to think beyond my pleasures. Not all can live impersonal lives or dedicate their lives to ideas and ideals, or to fight for causes, although the argument above suggests the opposite to be a more guaranteed means to happiness. Desires keep us excited and so do the thoughts of them getting accomplished. To what extent then must one think about one’s own desires? The conflict is between pursuing personal goals and committing to more impersonal ones. To live for oneself, while simultaneously living for others. The moment I focus more on the personal wants, the lesser I will contribute beyond me. In this era of instant gratification, focus is on fulfilling one’s desires faster than before. However, instant gratification has not necessarily made us contended, but, to the contrary, it has made us more self-centered and is gradually driving us to be less happy than the generations that preceded us. We may be plunging ourselves into sadness by our own creation. And while I am acutely aware that for the health of society, and myself, I need to look beyond my personal wants, and that to be happy I must attempt at what Lacan suggests, I am equally aware that I am falling short.

There is no moral to this piece.